I would like to think that I am an interesting person, unfortunately the life I currently lead is rather uneventful. I am 21 years young and I have many dreams of making wild memories and traveling. I dream from a desk working full time at a financing company (becoming more republican by the minute) and try to decided what it is that I would like to pursue as a career. As I ponder the options my future holds for me I ask myself, “will you get to see the world” and “will you enjoy doing this for the rest of your LIFE,” often I find that the answer is no and I move on to the next idea.
With that being said my major is so undecided it should be a major in itself. In the past, before I worked at my current job, I accepted the mediocrity I was putting forth into my education. Seeing people walk in my office who were denied by the bank and have a give me attitude with their undeserved disability checks made me get realistic, REAL QUICK. I aspire to encourage people that victory and success is much sweeter when you’ve worked your butt off to get there.
Anyways I am a dreamer, but I am realistic. I am hardworking and honest. I love reading and watching movies for they are an escape to a more interesting, light, or suspenseful place. I am blessed to have the family I was born in to and I would not trade them for the world.
I reckon that is me.

I always hate these assignments, we never see ourselves as we truly are. We place ourselves under a brighter or darker light.

It turns out procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It’s a neurotic self-defense behavior that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.

You see, procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.

But in real life, you can’t avoid doing things. We have to earn a living, do our taxes, have difficult conversations sometimes. Human life requires confronting uncertainty and risk, so pressure mounts. Procrastination gives a person a temporary hit of relief from this pressure of “having to do” things, which is a self-rewarding behavior. So it continues and becomes the normal way to respond to these pressures.

Particularly prone to serious procrastination problems are children who grew up with unusually high expectations placed on them. Their older siblings may have been high achievers, leaving big shoes to fill, or their parents may have had neurotic and inhuman expectations of their own, or else they exhibited exceptional talents early on, and thereafter “average” performances were met with concern and suspicion from parents and teachers.